Opinion

November 19, 2021

Why isn't it okay for startup founders to admit when they're failing?

Entrepreneur and investor Helena Murphy talks about the mental and physical toll of her startup's failure and why she felt so afraid to talk about it.


Helena Murphy

4 min read

Raising Partners

£100,000 worth of personal debt, stress-triggered hair loss and alarming weight changes. This is the ugly side of entrepreneurship that founders don’t talk about.

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